I have a confession to make. One that I'm not proud of. I'm struggling with the space. What to share and what to withhold.
Most of the problem is the nagging voice in my head, telling me to hold back. That I shouldn't write about what's happening in life as it will seem ungrateful, whiny and even like I'm gloating. That voice in my head that criticizes and tells me I'm not being true to this space.
The truth is there is so much happening now. So much to talk about. Between He-Beat crawling and standing, with She-Beat not too far behind. Both babies eating solids. And the fact that next month they will celebrate their first birthday. All of it leaves me in awe and makes me smile.
Then there's the negative aspects. The issues with neighbors who continue to cause problems. The lack of job security and the realities of a growing lack of funding for science in this country (see here) making both Grey and I wonder how we will evolve in order to support our family. And then the general reality that comes with being a parent of multiples.
Yet, I find myself hesitating to even talk about any of this. That I no longer feel safe to share all that is in my heart here. I know it's silly. After all, this space is what I make of it and no one can truly dictate what I write. And yet....
So I'll pose the question I've been struggling with: how does one evolve in their blog? Do you treat it as a chapter, closing up shop once that chapter is complete? Or is it more like a book?
Listen Up and then BE HEARD!
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