The road to transition is rarely a smooth one. Grey is actively in job-search/interview mode, thinking a lot about the next step and making connections almost daily. Still, there are moments where this potential future seems surreal. With daily deadlines and continual commitments, it still seems very much like a dream.
I remember a similar feeling following our last round of treatment. While your average fertile would immediately declare themselves pregnant and would be writing a birth plan, I was continually reminding myself that we were finally transitioning out of the trenches to the future we so desired. Many days, it all seemed surreal. Hence I always felt like I still had one foot in the trenches; waiting for it to all fall apart so that I would once again be back where we started.