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Two Sunday's ago, Grey and I abandoned our usual weekend morning routine and packed the Beats in the car for a trip to the zoo. Despite our local zoo being less than 3 miles away, it had been years since we last ventured through those gates. Grey was nervous for what would unfold as both Beats were fully in toddler mode. To his relief and delight, the 2 hours spent there were ones where both kiddos ran along the paths, stopped briefly at each exhibit to wave "hi" to the various animals, all the while wearing themselves out for a nice long nap for the whole crew.
Like many, I've always had a list of activities I assumed I would be doing one day when I had children. Trips to the zoo, the aquarium, local museums, the beach and even the park were givens. After a diagnosis of infertility and multiple failed rounds of treatment, that list became front-and-center in my life of places both to avoid and assuming we would never get to experience. In the midst of the darkness, these places became reminders of what we didn't have and assumed would never be.
Before our last treatment cycle, David and Dee actively challenged this list I had generated. Why was I excluding myself from places and opportunities that I once loved? The fictional banner that I draped over these places was doing me more harm than good and considering most young parents were reclaiming bars, why could I do the same.
So, with guidance, I created a bucket list to counter infertility. A list of things I would once again embrace in order to reclaim the life I deserved to be living. Trips to the bench, visits to local parks, berry picking, hiking local trails, etc all came to the forefront. And for those things that didn't appeal without a younger human in tow, a promise to bring a child that was in my life along as a way of capturing the experience.
This summer has been one where we've been going through that last portion of the bucket list. And though I am taking the Beats along with me on these adventures, I'm still acutely aware how different these experiences are now that we have resolved.
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