Monday, May 18, 2015

#Microblog Mondays: Anticipation

Not sure what #MicroblogMondays is? Read the inaugural post which explains the idea and how you can participate too.

I'm not a patient person. I'm guilty of reading the last chapter of a book to stave off the anticipation of the outcome of the story, reading spoilers and even hurry through projects just so I can get the answer. I've struggled with knowing outcomes for as long as I can remember and beside massive progress on learning to live in the moment, I still tend to drive myself crazy from the unknown.

This lack of patience was torturous while dealing with infertility. Not having a firm answer or an idea of an outcome left me chronically depressed and anxious. One of the gifts I gained from this experience was learning to let go of needing to know. I've gotten better. I swear I have.

So knowing this, you can imagine how tortuous today is for me. Grey is currently on an interview with his dream job. Landing this position not only means he'll finally have a new direction for his career but will also be the catalyst for relocating so I can start my postdoc. There's a lot riding on today. We've both been preparing and stressing for this.

And I have zero idea how it's going. No clue if things are going well or if he's hating the whole experience.

Can it please be 7 pm already? 

12 comments:

  1. Good luck!!!!!!!!! Keep us posted!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Good luck to Grey! And yeah, totally with you on the spoilers. I just can't handle the wait!

    ReplyDelete
  3. Crossing fingers (crossing everything, really) that it goes well today. That you get good news at 7 pm or at least reassurance that it went well.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Oh, so exciting and excruciating all at the same time! I hope 7 comes quickly and the waiting goes by fast. (I am also struggling with letting go of needing to know and needing answers, because I found out the hard way that sometimes there just isn't an answer and you have to accept that. Argh.) Oh, good luck and I hope it all goes great!

    ReplyDelete
  5. Ahhh! It's 6:45 here - I so hope you're getting good news around now!

    ReplyDelete
  6. I really struggle with living in the moment too...

    Wishing the best news for you at 7!

    ReplyDelete
  7. (Just had a comment rejected, so hope I'm not posting twice).

    The agony of waiting! I hear you. I hope the waiting is over, and you heard what you needed to hear, and that you have been able to relax.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I am also very impatient and it made IF/loss so f***ing bearable. I get it. I totally do.

    I hope you've gotten good news. Thinking of you both.

    ReplyDelete
  9. Hope that there is good news! It's now well past 7 ... fingers crossed for you both.

    ReplyDelete
  10. Oh, I hope the news is happy news.

    ReplyDelete
  11. I haven't read ahead (I am way behind on reading & commenting, as you can tell...!), but I hope the news was good...!

    ReplyDelete

 
Design by Small Bird Studios | All Rights Reserved