#Microblog Mondays: Anticipation

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I'm not a patient person. I'm guilty of reading the last chapter of a book to stave off the anticipation of the outcome of the story, reading spoilers and even hurry through projects just so I can get the answer. I've struggled with knowing outcomes for as long as I can remember and beside massive progress on learning to live in the moment, I still tend to drive myself crazy from the unknown.

This lack of patience was torturous while dealing with infertility. Not having a firm answer or an idea of an outcome left me chronically depressed and anxious. One of the gifts I gained from this experience was learning to let go of needing to know. I've gotten better. I swear I have.

So knowing this, you can imagine how tortuous today is for me. Grey is currently on an interview with his dream job. Landing this position not only means he'll finally have a new direction for his career but will also be the catalyst for relocating so I can start my postdoc. There's a lot riding on today. We've both been preparing and stressing for this.

And I have zero idea how it's going. No clue if things are going well or if he's hating the whole experience.

Can it please be 7 pm already?