Friday, December 30, 2016

Reraveling

December has been a foggy month. Between the rush of job interviewing, negotiations and managing offers, the crash that came after the ink dried on the offer letter left me wanting to do nothing but sleep.

So slept I did. In the midst of holiday preparations and closing out projects while preparing for the transition. Sleep came surprisingly easily.

Strange things happen to your brain and your body when one finds themselves unraveling. Though your brain can still be going a million miles an hour, you also can feel like you're moving through molasses. To those outside observing, one may simply seem out of sorts. But the reality is so much is happening underneath the surface.

The past couple of days have marked a need to reravel. The news of loss (really Universe? It had to be both Carrie Fisher and George Michael within days of one another?) combined with my birthday and finally the urgency with my family to make amends with my grandmothers (apparently they are both on borrowed time) has forced to resurface from the fog I've been in. Be it very reluctantly. I know there's still more healing to do; the hours spent knitting, reading, reflecting and dozing haven't fully cleared my head.

But that will have to be for another time.


8 comments:

  1. The holidays are so exhausting on there own and then adding in all the extra things you are dealing with it is definitely a good time for some self care. When I feel foggy sometimes I like to taking Epsom salt baths with essential oils, drink lots of tea and try to watch some mindless television. Hoping 2017 brings you some peace and clarity!

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  2. Hugs lady...as if there isn't enough going on...Thinking of you.

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  3. I am glad that you were able to rest, and that it came easily. I can't wait to follow along as you begin this new (and totally awesome) chapter of your professional life. You are going to rock it and they were lucky to get you!

    Wishing you peace with your family stuff. Take care of you!

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  4. Congrats on the ink drying! But wow, lots of transitions, lots of changes. The holidays are such a funny time -- I feel like there's rest in there, but also so much going on that you can come back and feel strangely tired. I'm glad you've had space for the knitting and reading and resting, and that it bolsters you up for what's to come.

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  5. Sounds like you have closure with a few things in 2016, and the start of other things -- hopefully auspicious -- for 2017. May all your transitions go as easefully as possible.

    And happy belated birthday!

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  6. So many changes. And the holidays are so exhausting as it is. I hope your knitting is coming along and helping with some of the stress. <3

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  7. That is a lot of change. And Christmas is exhausting enough how it is. I hope your knitting is going well and that it can relieve some stress for you. <3

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  8. I've always thought that if we don't slow down and be kind to ourselves, our bodies will do it for us, one way or another. Hope you've had some time to sleep more, rest up & relax. (((hugs)))

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