Yesterday was filled with those lows. After spending the morning nursing a migraine, what should have been a simple experiment proved far more complex. Hours later, with no clear answer in sight (I think the issue is the filters, but need to test), I got an email that basically killed with grant writing endeavors for a program I want to get off the ground. The cherry on top was running into someone who was an undergraduate while I was a graduate student. Turns out he has not only finished his PhD, but is now the founder of a start-up in the same facility the community lab is housed. Clearly I have been slacking for the past 6 years.
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Still, sometimes (often times), I just want to add vodka. Anything to dull the pain that is in my head, blurring out the anxiety that comes from realizing that the clock ticking.
Oh, Cristy -- I'm thinking of you. There's nothing quite like having those moments that make you question everything you've ever done. I'm glad you have those highs, though, because you are doing something wonderful in taking a risk and following a new dream -- it's brave, and inspiring. I always liked "When life gives you lemons, make limoncello" myself. :) Wishing you all the best, and other grants in the future that have emails that start with, "We are pleased to..." Love to you, lady!
ReplyDeleteI hear you. I am in a similar place now. Maybe we need to sit down together with some limoncello. That's the ticket!
ReplyDeleteUgh. So sorry girl. I hate moments like that.
ReplyDeleteSlacking for the past couple of years? Umm I would say that going through infertility and having twins would never put you in the category of a "slacker." Don't think too much about what someone else is doing- put your head down and focus on your future.
ReplyDelete^^ What Non Sequitur Chica said. I've always been rather partial to vodka myself. ;) How I would love to meet up with all of you at a bar somewhere for limoncellos!
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