It started with a text. A simple "hey, how are you?" I hadn't heard from my brother since Christmas, when the usual pleasantries were exchanged. After a brief back-and-forth, he asked if I was available to talking the next night. Simply to catch up and see how things were going.
But Grey and I knew this was something more. An opening that we had been waiting for. So after my brother called and he updated me on life and its usual drama, I made the decision to tell him all. All about the last 3 years, including IVF, our losses, the pain and uncertainty. And finally about his niece and nephew.
And with that decision, the flood gates have been opened. The wheels of reconnect are turning and a plan is in motion. Today I need to finalize letters and make a plan for mailing. So much to think about. So much uncertainty.
I'm so scared.
Oh wow...scary and amazing, all at once. Thinking of you...
ReplyDeleteHow exciting and scary! I hope it all goes smoothly.
ReplyDeleteThis is a HUGE step. Family stuff is never easy - I'm in a similar de-chilling of the waters moment myself. Thinking of you and hoping that this new journey takes you in the direction you want to go.
ReplyDeleteHuge huge huge step. Sending lots of good thoughts as you navigate this.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you...sending lots of positive vibes your way.
ReplyDeleteI hope the wheels keep turning in the right direction for your re-connection.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are going to reconnect! Dealing with family can be so tricky. Sending you best wishes that everything goes smoothly.
ReplyDeleteBlogger ate my original comment, but I just wanted to say that I'm so happy that you have been able to start reconnecting with your brother and filling him in on everything. Dealing with family can be so tricky. Sending you best wishes that everything goes smoothly!
ReplyDeleteHang in there Cristy. This family crap is hard. Baby steps are okay. Hugs to you and your little family.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you as you take the steps to reconnect. I can only imagine how scared you are. Family stuff is really hard to navigate through and so draining.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. You can do this. I know how nerve wracking this is and how scary things can be when you put yourself out there...but you made the move. You are brave and strong.
ReplyDeleteI don't know the backstory hear but I can tell that whatever it is, it's intense. Thinking of you as you navigate these waters.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you both reached out in your way, and wish you luck. At least you can never say you didn't try.
ReplyDeleteI also don't know the backstory. But it sounds like it is taking a lot of courage to reconnect. I hope all goes well for you as you pursue a relationship with your brother.
ReplyDeleteI'm just catching up now. Not sure if you've written any more about this, but I too wish you luck. Here's to reaching out & to new beginnings.
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