The title speaks for itself. Black blood showed up in the Crinone 3 days ago. Same as last time. What is different is that it hasn't tapered off.
So I called my clinic and talked with Nurse E. She reassured me that this was normal. Many women spot during the first trimester. To not be concerned unless it increased to a mini-period and/or became red.
Then this afternoon hit. And in all honesty, how does one classify "red?" This is no means full flow, but it's much more than it was this morning. Add in the fact I now have cramps (also appearing this afternoon) and I'm officially a basket case.
Somehow I need to hold it together.
God I'm spooked. So spooked. I don't want to go through another miscarriage.
UPDATE: Got ahold of Dr. Optimism. Beta#3 ordered. She order the test for STAT processing and promised me that she'd call with the results tonight. Hating my body all the more at the moment.
UPDATE #2: Beta #3 = 2998. Dr. Optimism's orders are to stop freaking out and to spend the night thinking positive thoughts. Everyone is allowed to yell at me now.
The Right Words
23 hours ago
I'm thinking of you and hoping that this is just typical early pregnancy spotting. Take care of yourself Cristy!
ReplyDeleteI am going to stay hopeful and positive for you. I am by no means a doctor but with your beta being so high, maybe twins? I heard that its very common . Keeping you in my heart :-)
ReplyDeleteOh Cristy! I know this must be scary for you. I wish I could give you a hug. I am holding a very positive thought that all is well.
ReplyDeletekeep calm!
ReplyDeletebreathe deep!
I know it's easier said then done, but I was in your shoes a year ago.
and trust me when you see red - you know it's red.
sending you tons of warm thoughts and tons of hugs!!!
So sorry you're going through this! I hope it's nothing and I'll be thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteVery, very scary Cristy. I spotted quite a bit and it was red blood. Bright red. It terrified me also. I really hope everything works out ok.
ReplyDeleteAlso just for reference... my betas were rather high like yours... my first one was 330 and second was 770. Mine was a singleton but know with the high numbers yours could go either way.
Thinking of you during this scary time.
*Big Hugs*
Beyond hoping this is all ok! Even f everything is fine, I'm pissed you are experienced this worry.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, and as impossible as it sounds, see what happens next. Hugging you from here!!
We're gathering behind you Cristy. All this positive energy coming your way could move mountains.
ReplyDeleteWe're gathering behind you Cristy. All this positive energy coming your way could move mountains.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this, we are all here for you. Like the nurse said, many people spot this early. My friend did and her spotting is now 9 months old. Try not to get too spooked although I'm sure it feels impossible. Sending all my love and positive thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteOh, how scary scary! Hang in there. Do you practice yoga? I just had a class and it was amazing how it helped me leave my anxiety and focus on positivity. Your beta is fantastic!
ReplyDeleteWe won't let this happen. Your embaby is going to be okay. I know where your head is and I know how difficult it is to feel positive. Just do whatever you can. Nothing you do or don't do will change the outcome hon.
ReplyDeleteJust breath and call me if you need to. Okay? I had massive bleeding at 12 weeks, like I thought the babies had died, and they didn't. That bleed was not the end. Yours isn't either.
I'm thinking of you and hope you are staying relaxed. Take tomorrow off if you can.
Deep breaths. So sorry you are so spooked. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugz!
ReplyDeleteIt's so understandable to worry after everything that you've been through... so relieved for you xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh, Cristy, I'm so sorry about this. Your beta sounds great and I'm reassured that Dr. Optimism is optimistic. I hope the spotting stops ASAP for you.
ReplyDeleteAwesome beta!! It is so hard not to panic, so don't beat yourself up about it! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteOh my dear goodness you scared me. Probably not half as scared as you were but jeez. Don't feel at ALL bad about freaking out, are you kidding? After what you've been through? That's 100% your right. But I'm just so glad for that strong beta number. Like, freakishly strong - wow, C! From 800-something to 3,000 in how long was it? As others have said, nothing you can do will change it so put all your energy behind staying positive! I'm sending major STICK and GROW vibes your way to those embabies... err, "embaby." ;)
ReplyDeleteNot going to yell at you. All spotting/bleeding is scary. But it is a good reminder that while it can be a warning sign, it can also be something else. Still, deep breaths. Sending a hug.
ReplyDeleteYour cervix is probably irritated from the meds, or you might have a SCH, both of them aren't very dangerous. Don't panic. Blood is always scary, but it is very common.
ReplyDeleteEek! Scary! I do hope that it has stopped. I would be a basket case, too!
ReplyDelete(((HUGS)))!!! Totaly understandable to freak a bit but I would have 2 agree w/ the girls keep calm and deep breath ur doc sounds like an amazing one and if she feels all is well then try and go w/ her thoughts on it... KMFX that u can get some relief from all that scariness!!!
ReplyDeleteI just sent an email checking on you. Guess I should have checked your blog first :) I am so happy that the doctor assured you things are going just right. Now sit back and enjoy :)
ReplyDeleteBreathe! Crinone is a funny thing and can cause lots of yuckyness and spotting. I hope that your Dr is right and everything is good. Certainly doesn't help put you in a good headspace. You are entitled to feel scared! I would be too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that your numbers are increasing. Put your feet up, grab a good book or pop in a movie.
ReplyDeleteFirst, belated congratulations! I've been on vacation with a self-imposed internet embargo. Second, glad you were able to get another beta and it is moving in the right direction! Bleeding is scary. The uncertainty of all of this is scary. It was a long, hard road to get here. Worrying will not change the outcome, so as hard as it is, enjoy each day as you have it though.
ReplyDeleteOh thank goodnesss! Rest up!
ReplyDeleteI think it was just baby's way of saying hi! He/she hasn't figured out how to communicate with you without freaking you out yet. You're still learning about each other! ;) So wonderful and such a relief about your beta. I understand that you will always be on edge until certain milestones are reached. Please know that I remain so hopeful for you!
ReplyDeleteGREAT beta! No yelling (well I guess I did yell, but it was coming from a place of excitement). With a beta like that will you schedule an ultrasound soon?
ReplyDeleteOh, I was so holding my breath as I read through this post. Sounds like from everyone elses response that BETA number is great, so I will continue to hope for more good news...thinking of you!!
ReplyDeleteI only started following your blog recently, but all my fingers and toes are crossed for you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so thrilled about the update! Yay! Go eat chocolate in celebration :)
ReplyDeleteYay for a great beta numbers! I would have been freaking out too. :)
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