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On Friday, I received a very nice formal letter informing me that I wasn't accepted for a spot in a course. The logical part of my brain immediately listed off all the reasons that this was a good thing (course was high commitment, on the other side of town which would have made commuting a bitch, would have meant leaving Grey alone with the Beats for almost 2 weeks, etc, etc.). And yet, the emotional part felt utterly defeated and frustrated.
I should be use to rejection at this point in my life. After all, I've lived through doors closing and finding windows for opportunity that I never would have focused on otherwise.
Yet, I still feel like a loser. And have been beating myself up appropriately for it.
How I hate rejection and all that comes with it.
Addiction to Prediction
8 hours ago
Yuck. It can feel icky to be denied something you've put yourself out there for. Abiding with you as you process and heal this, and things that may be behind it.
ReplyDeleteWell that sucks. I hope your day gets better!
ReplyDeleteYou know that I'm there with you on this -- rejection always sucks, from the smallest things (that are sometimes blessings in disguise) to the big ones that our hearts were set on. I am so sorry that you got the rejection letter. Feel what you need to feel until you're ready to take a deep breath.
ReplyDeleteI tend to beat myself up for rejection too. I know how hard that is to avoid. :-(
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry...rejection sucks and makes you feel utterly unworthy and deficient. You'll heal eventually, but the sting just sucks. Hoping good things for you in the meantime!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the rejection letter. That stings and rejection is tough. I can very much relate to the beating self up over rejection. Thinking of you as you process this.
ReplyDeleteYuck. I've had quite a few rejections over the last year, often for jobs I didn't want. But the rejection still hurts, I know. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteRejection is hard to take for sure, hope you don't beat yourself up for too long though!
ReplyDeleteUgh. Rejection... I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteThe littlest thing can make us feel lousy. I'm feeling rejected because my dermatologist no longer takes my insurance...no kidding... I just try not to spend so much time in my misery that I might miss something better... xo
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